What would you do if you were out to dinner with your boyfriend, and durring the coruse of dinner you talk; about his day, and how he had quizzes, and how he was frazzled, and about how he doesn't sleep well before midnight, so most nights he sits in front of the computer playing a video game until midnight and then goes to bed, and how his parents drive him up the wall, and how he wants to see a few video clips that are on your computer at home; but then when you get back to your house he looks at you and says that he thinks he's just going to go home?

If you were me you'd look at him with a huge look of disapointment on your face, look him right in the eye so you're sure he see's it, and say it's fine, even though it's not. He would say that he wants to hang out tomorrow after you get out of work, you'd say okay, and that you'd see if you can get your roommate out of the house, and he'd say that you wouldn't have to do that. You'd kiss him and go inside and sit and think about every other time he's said that he doesn't feel like hanging out when you call and ask if he just wants to come over and watch movies or something. You'd remember how much he hates being at his house, how insane his parents drive him.

You'd remember how he used to say that he loved you, how it used to make you feel. You'd compare it to how he says it now and feel so very far away from him....

Aren't you glad you're not me?

"I know some day you'll have a beatiful life
I know you'll be the sun
in somebody
else's sky
but why
why
why
can't it be
mine?"
-=Black [Pearljam]=-